I am leaving on a large plane...but not before another post!

So lately I've wanted to reply to these posts as soon as I see that you have one maybe its my competitive spirit or because in my head it feels like we are having one long conversation but either way its been nice getting to our regular posts.
And I understand that about it being awkward about telling people you're in a relationship. Maybe you just don't want to be judged and you don't know how the other person will react or how they will feel about themselves, you, the other person when you tell them. Who really knows. And good job on not thinking about yourself for a whole min! That is a big accomplishment I don't know if I wouldve lasted that long.
I totally forgot to comment on those $1 gloves that is fantastic! If only I had time to go to Target and pick myself up 3 pairs. I really could use a pair or two of gloves I never seem to have them and my hands always end up cold. Not fun I tell you. not fun.
So moving didn't end up being that bad it only took about 2 hours so it was pretty uneventful to be honest, the car ride there are back was more annoying because it felt forever. So now I'm packing up, this is kind of an awkward trip to pack for since its 3 weeks long so I know I will be doing laundry and don't need to take that many clothes but at the same time I want to have enough so I'm not just cycling between two different dresses but then again I could also just buy more when I get there which my sister and I are planning on doing anyways so...yea. And I want to take less so I can bring back more but everytime I see another one of my dresses Im like but what if I will want to wear that one? Considering I don't get to wear my indian dresses that often here even though I do get to wear them once in a while, still when will those dresses get their day in the light? I feel like I have to choose between my pokemon. You know how that feels? I'm sure you do.
Also since today is my last real day here I went to see Sally( yes she does exist!) and Ela is coming over in a little while so its nice to catch up but honestly I'm sooo ready to escape from my life for a while. I don't know what it was about this last semester but I'm just soo done. Done with classes. Done with RHA. Done with people( not you silly I'm never done with you).  And I just want to go far away and pretend like all this doesn't exist for a while. Which is perfect because I actually get to! How often does that happen?
But yea I'm also having trouble packing my carry on since I took out so many books from the library and I dont know which ones I will actually end up reading/liking so Im just taking all of them but Im afraid of losing them since they are library books but I am anyways. Im also trying to convince my sister to download harry potter on her kindle which apparently you can illegally download onto but i dont know if she will actually get around to doing that.
Im also excited for the warmish weather.
Iv been saying happy christmas today like the british do. See I told you finals week made me weirder.
This might be my last post so I will bid you adieu at this moment! I shall return, don't move on! Wait for me!
k im done being weird now.

You're leavin. On a large plane.

Hi :)

Shabbos starts in about twenty ish minutes so I have a limited amount of time but I wasn't sure if I'd get to post tomorrow night so I wanted to post again before you leave because it's apparently the only thing I can be productive at. (Thought I am now nearly caught up on four different shows...) That being said I hope today wasn't too much of a drag with all of the moving and packing and moving back and unpacking (hopefully not down to you). I have unpacked mostly except i didn't bring hangers home so my hanging stuff is... on a pile on the floor still. But the good news is that the cats have not yet gotten to it. By that I mean they have not yet elected to spread cat hair allll over it.

Yesterday my mom felt like doing something so we said maybe we would play a game and then she fell asleep on the couch after we'd been watching TV for about five minutes. Because of my boredom and the lack of sleep that comes hand in hand with going to sleep really late and waking up at ten something, I fell asleep on the couch for an hour and woke up in a foul mood and with a headache, which was unpleasant to say the least.

Allison H. stopped by today. Haven't seen her in a while so that was lovely. Plus she baked us some challah. Sweeeeet. She's seeing someone. I guess that's really the update of the day. My update for her was something like the $1 gloves (still a good deal, but you can understand why the two really don't compare). I don't know why people have to be so awkward. She practically whispered it to me, averting her eyes like she was unexpectedly slipping me top secret nuclear codes and someone had bugged my house in Queens. Is it embarrassing to tell people you are in a relationship? Is this because it's just awkward to tell people or because it's weird to be in a new relationship at all? Is it because i'm not in one? Is it because I don't know him? I don't know... I was happy for her for I think a full minute before thinking of myself. (This is significant because I think How I Met Your Mother only gives people 30 seconds- so it proves my selflessness.) Truth is I don't see Alli that much so it affects me minimally if at all... until she starts growing up or thinking about engagement. Sigh. In any case i really am happy for her. Not sure why I'm more happy for her than I usually am for the people I know in relationships so I'll spend Shabbos over-analyzing that. TTFN Ta Ta For Now.

we are starting to lead the same life...

So I just saw your post and I'm sitting in my living room with my parents and my doesn't like it when I'm home and I'm not sitting with her as she watches tv ( I know shes insane this is where I get it from) so im just gonna write one now and maybe I will record a video later.
And omg I thought the exact same thing when watching Easy A, I thought he was on the phone with a guy for sure! That was such a good shocker. And yea during the whole thing I was just like, silly Pheobe go back to Central Perk.
I'm sad for those lost 3 min. Who knows how many laughs I couldve gotten...WHO KNOWS?! Well you do.
You did tell me those things and yes we were walking when you did, and yea I hate selecting movies in groups of people I always end up being one of those people like yea whatever I dont care but I dont think Iv seen that many movies in groups oh wait what am i talking about movie thursdays used to be a thing but most of the movies we saw were good the only down point of that was when not everyone ( by which I mean just yael) didnt like the movie and tried to convince everyone the movie was terrible just because she didnt like it. right. good times.
So tomorrow my parents and I have to go to New Haven to go help my sister move in since she is finally done with everything at Yale and is ready to leave there now. Now ofcourse my sister being herself, and kind of like you, has not packed at all so we have to go pack her up and help her move out. Needless to say I am not looking forward to this, especially because I decided to work out yest and today and now I am incredibly sore. Good times again, but hey itll just be my work out for tomorrow. And then I have to pack for myself and leave aah. Crazy.
I applied for 4 more jobs today thats actually all i did i just sat on my couch and filled out job applications. Which by the way is not fun at all they ask you all these useless questions like developments in the investment banking industry which I know nothing about and I just made stuff up again useful that Im not passionate about working in any one place.
Maybe I will watch despicable me tonight. Oh by the way Iv been catching up on Modern Family and its hilarious you should def catch up! Like there was this one episode I was literally dying they are so good. Ok I may be exaggerating a little bit but really funny you should watch. Im starting to think I watch too many shows.
Dont really know where today went. I like how you started that post like community channel. Iv been watching more of that. Shes so funny. Why arent we friends. Maybe its because I am her. Shes my alter asian ego. Just kidding thats jen. Its been hard keeping two blogs up. Anyways thats enough being weird for tongiht I will try to do a video post later...or will i?! dun dun dun. Ok lame.

We only got 4 minutes to save the world... and I took 7. FML.

Strange note: The file for this video saved as movie 5 but the last one was 18. Weird...

DAMN!!! Remember how in the last video I said sometimes photobooth doesn't record. Well it cut off 3 and a half minutes of this video. Stupid photo booth. Oh well. All that funniness lost forever.

waiting for my plane to come

Yea that’s right. Its another dramatic title. I’d like to see what you do about it. I have a lot of feelings and emotions ok?! (from the side: “she doesn’t even go here!”) ok that would’ve worked better had I said it but you get the gist…

But anyways more importantly I watched Easy A last night too!!! Omg twins. We think the same. We are the same. I am Jenna Grunfeld. Just kidding Im not. Or am I? Anyways I watched it and yea she is so pretty it was good I liked it a lot.I did not like Lisa Kudrow in it though, is it just me or is her botox just way too much to handle? Its like I cant even notice anything else I just keep thinking. Wow Lisa what happened to you. Also she had a pretty negative role in the movie so that might have something to do with it. Just sayin.

Right now Im trying to download Despicable Me from my friend Lizzie who is trying to send it through aim and I’m pretty sure its been like half an hour and its 16% done. I hope this works I really wanna see this movie. I realized yesterday that after you told me to watch it I actually dled coyote ugly so I might watch that sometime soon. Or will I? You never know. I keep you on your toes like that.

I would do a video post too but I dunno if I can figure out how to do it and then post it in the blog. Im sure I can if I tried.Maybe I will one day…yet another surprise in store for you. I’m trying to keep the fire alive in our relationship. Let it burn. Im extra weird tonight. Maybe its my weirdness from finals carrying over. Im becoming a socially awkward person Jenna..oh no I knew this day would come. I had just hoped it wouldn’t come so soon.

So I tried applying to jobs today and ofcourse got overwhelmed. I wrote 2 cover letters though by which I mean I wrote one and changed the company’s name and I know they tell you not to do that but frankly im lazy and there isn’t really any one job which I really really want to get I just want a job which is probably not the best mentality to have in the first place but to all this I say…meh.

I got a B in the class I got the 37 exam grade in. Its still my worst Iv never gotten a B in a class before but really im ok with it because I was expecting much worse and iv resigned myself to this. Its really a miracle that I even got this considering I thought I bombed the final. It’s a Christmas miracle! Speaking of which I also saw that episode of community last night and it was soo good! Love that show they are so innovative.

I guess this means I can catch up on chuck too…tear. It wont be the same but maybe the show wont even be good this season in which case its all like whatever.  You know whats weird even though it feels lik iv written a lot in this post you’ve still said more in your 4 min video than I could type out. Crazy. I hope you got milk and did your laundry and unpacked. I unpacked the night I got home because I wanted the room somewhat clean for you. If you hadn’t come everything still would be a mess. I need a really good book to read, none of the books I got out are really doing it for me. Course I haven’t tried reading a majority of them but the covers don’t interest me much. That’s right. I just judged a book by its cover. What you gonna do about that huh? Huh?! Tee hee just kidding im not angry at all. Seriously with the weirdness though.

lets try and get another one in before i leave!!!

Dramatic Titles FTW

flowers smell good

I thought I'd change it up from my usual metaphorical overdramatic statuses by stating a simple fact, or sometime fact because flowers don't always smell good sometimes they don't have a distinct smell.

But anyways I apologize for being so awful with writing in here it was mainly because I wanted to do justice to your last entry but then I thought maybe you didn't write that to elicit a response but more just to tell me in which case my reply need not have waited nearly as long. But I guess its just one of those things that really sucks that you have to deal with and what probably sucks most about it is watching someone you love go through something painful and yet not be able to do anything about it, and i dont even have to say anything about losing someone you love in that case. But anyways I'm really sorry and I hope you know I'm always here for you whenever you need anything or you dont even have to need it really you can just want it because thats ok too.

I hope you enjoyed thanksgiving, I literally did nothing. I slept till 1 on wednesday, the rest of the days I spent some quality time with my couch and bed and I saw one friend, sally the one who doesnt exist remember? except no really I saw her and I went shopping for a little bit on saturday to buy jen a present which ended by being harder than i realized.

I'm very excited to see you perform on wednesday I feel like its been a very long time since Iv seen you perform. Also i just feel like its been forever since iv seen you in general.  Oh we changed the set up of our apt since Jen and I felt like we needed a change and Tarah took luna home for thanksgiving so it was the perfect time for it. Its nice actually it was a much needed change i think. It felt cathartic in a weird way.

I feel like I have a lot to talk about but I want it to be a conversation so I guess it will have to wait until wednesday. I will leave you with a corny joke : What's a mermaid's undergarment?


An algebra.

Baby, There's a Shark in the Water

Yes, that's right. I saw your video. You two have got some moves... I don't know how much I have to say right now, but it was getting ridiculous how long it's been since the last post. I wanted to keep this consistent. Fail. Anywhoooo.

Biggest news in my life right now is that my grandfather's wife (stepgrandmother) is dying. It's sad. And I'll cry at the funeral, but I'm really bad about being upset until others around me are. My mom keeps telling me how hard it's been on Sabrina and I keep having only a sympathetic "mmm" to offer. My mom too isn't freaking out. She never really got over the fact that Lorraine isn't her mother, which like, obviously but I mean in the sense that even though Lorraine welcomed us into her family, treats us with love and kindness, has been far more a part of my life than my Nana who died when I was 3, my mother has never let herself get too close to Lorraine. I myself have never really understood grandparents at all. Two died before my parents were married. One when I was 3. And my grandfather, well, he's an interesting man.  Affection was never his strong suit I guess. He bought us nice gifts, pinched our cheeks, saw us on holidays, but I never felt that "grandparent/granddaughter" bond that my friends all seemed to have with at least one side of the family.

I sometimes wonder what it would have been like to grow up with all four of them. I think my dad's dad was a hard man probably. I don't know what kind of grandfather he would have been. He died before my cousin was born too. My cousin is ten years older than I am. He got a few years with my dad's mother before my parents were married. I've seen the pictures, heard the stories. By all accounts she was lovely. Sweet, loving, warm and affectionate. My mother really liked her. My Nana, well I'm pretty sure there are no bad stories about her. My mother was extremely close with her mother. I often say she was abnormally close with my Nana. I remember my Nana's smell, the sunkist and jelly fish that I got when I was at her house. I remember the spray air freshener dispensers in her house and the fun light switch in the room that was once my mother's. I cherish the dolls that were bought by her, but I don't really remember her at all. I think that hurts my mom. My sisters has such strong memories of her. All I have are stories. How I begged her for my American girl Molly. How I hid in the plastic blue laundry hamper after she died. I think I might remember that one actually, but it's possible that I just remember the hamper.

Growing up, I often attached myself to my friends' grandparents. The closest I ever got I think was Poppop, Allison's grandfather (and Mommom also). When poppop died last year, it was the hardest thing. Never having grandparents meant never losing them, and I had never experienced that loss. For weeks, I cried at every mention and thought of him and I hated it and my mom thought I was depressed (which is kind of a go-to thought for her anyway). I love Lorraine. I will miss her and I will be sad when she dies. But I'm afraid what emotions a funeral will bring back from last year. I always cry at funerals. I don't consider myself a person who is particularly in touch with her emotions, but when people tell those heart-crushing stories and they start to tear and their voice cracks. When people talk about their loved ones... I lose it. I don't know what it is. I don't know if the emotions are misplaced or repressed or both and not knowing that is unsettling to me. I know I said I didn't have a lot to say. I think I was wrong. Because I could keep going, but I'd really just like to stop crying before someone walks into the room and asks what's wrong.

Sorry for the sad post... 

In the eye of the hurricane

So I thought now would be a good time to write in this since I had a crazy past couple of days and tonight is my one break before things are back to crazy againt tommorrow. Aah life. I was just thinking about how I have not had any time to figure out my classes and I register like on tuesday nbd. I should do that..

But going back to your dilemma, or going there since I never went there in the first place I think that the whole city internship thing is definitely a risk, its something unlike anything youve done and youre pretty much setting yourself up for one hell of a semester. But that being said it sounds like an amazing opportunity. I think you should go with your gut, and I know thats lame and not a straight answer but at the end of the day I think you do know whats right for you as you always have and youll make the right decision. And you know I think everything happens for a reason so even if it ends up being not so ideal then its a learning experience and something will come out of it regardless.

So its a lot easier for me to think about all this when Im not crazy about things in my own life lol. Which so far so good but the future looks bleak. I cant believe how fast everything is going by, its like I have no sense of time at all anymore. The way this semester has been zooming by is complete insanity. Its like every week starts off and before I know its its thursday night. Its probabaly because my days are so packed now its just running from one place to another. And also because I dont have a school night where I have no meeting. Its been interesting and Im scared to think what next semester will be like and hell what next year will be like because for some reason that seems like an even scaries prospect. But really though, we JUST started 2010...it cant be almost over already..it just cant! yea yea what else is new.

So I was thinking when we live in london we could maybe have a cat. Iv always been against pets but Luna is really not that bad and as long as I dont have to do anything Im ok with it lol.  And can we live in a place that ends in shire, or maybe just a street that ends in shire? just a thought. Id also be ok with abbey. You think it over.

Classtime/Passtime

So I was thinking about our conversation last night. Not any of the important ones, just the one where you were trying to figure if you knew the RA I met. I was thinking about how sometimes you (people in general) assume you're going to know people because you have some peripheral mutual affiliation, but the truth is it's probably unlikely that you actually know them. As a New Yorker at Rutgers, this happens a lot to me when people know a Jew from Queens. I really just assume I'll know them even though I probably don't. And then when I don't, I don't say "Oh, that's weird, how could I not know who that is?" I say "Hm... nope, don't know her... I actually really only know about 4% of the Jews in Queens anyway." I just think that's strange.

What's also strange is how many professors preach their beliefs under the guise of teaching you to be a free thinker. I have two teachers like this at the moment, well kind of three, but the main two I'm thinking of are at opposite ends of the political spectrum (and the stupidity spectrum) anyway so I guess it balances out. What I hate is that my cognition teacher makes me so much angrier than the other professor. Because here I am, in class, writing this post and listen to him lecture about how there isn't a soul. He's entitled to his belief. According to him, I'm entitled to mine too... assuming of course that I know my opinion is wrong. Like "Think what you want, but just FYI what you think is, like, ridiculously incorrect."

I should be doing my film homework. I'm so tired though. I stayed up til 3something last night looking at classes. I think I might have figured out a way to do the internship but it means putting off math yet again (and therefore ending up taking it senior year). It means taking an online class. And it means taking an Honors seminar. I would have a 9:50 3hour on both Monday and Wednesday, a MW 1:10- 2:30 honors seminar (in the Brett Seminar room :/), and then a MW 4:30-5:50. That's 4 classes. The online class would be by appt. obviously.

• Problem A. The 3 hour on Monday is Screenwriting... It's not the Writing for television section that I thought I would take which isn't the hugest deal except I can't find a revue for the Professor- never comforting... the only way around this is the 3hour on a friday- which doesn't seem advisable.
• Problem B. Two 3 hours- also not the biggest deal in the world, but I just would like to point out that 3 hours are loooooong periods of time.
• Problem C. An Online class- what if it's a lot of work and I don't have time?
• Problem D. A film class with a screening at 6:10 on Wed. Night- We might change Kol Halayla rehearsal to Wed. night so this would leave me with approximately enough time to watch movies and maybe eat dinner before KH- just a long day- 9:50am-11pm pretty much straight. Yikes.
• Problem E. The seminar seems interesting (ish) and I do still need Honors classes, but sometimes they're more work than their worth. Animal Studies- not necessarily what it sounds like... 

But I think all of these problems are just cover-ups for the real problem: Do I really want to have an internship two days a week? Isn't it crazy to be on a 7:15 am bus in the morning for a net of probably something like $100 a week?  Will I be crazy busy all the time? Will I have time for Kol Halayla? Do I want to leave my math class for senior year? Will I be able to get all of the work done? Will I hate it?

Just for the sake of balance, here are the Pros

• No friday classes- I'm hoping this would kind of balance out the too busy thing
• Holy crap, I actually only have class two days a week
• I'll get to be in the city- I love to be in the city...
• Hopefully I'll be doing something I really enjoy with people I enjoy
• I'll be getting yet another experience from this industry- more experience gives me more of an idea of what I want or don't want to do with my life. It gives me more to think about, opens my mind up to more options for the future...

Thoughts?

hairspray makes me feel fabulous

Ok so im back to being happy again, its mainly because my exam is over, this week is far far far better than last one was my hair is straight and i get to leave to see you in approximately 15 min! And if thats not exciting then I dont know what is. Oh and did I mention I can actually go to ballroom tonight and not feel guilty that im not studying for an exam the next day. Man, stupid school. Can i still drop out and come live in your closet because I would love that right about now.
Im so glad your birthday went well, and maybe youre just becoming older and wiser now. I always try to not expect too much out of people on my birthday because I dont want to be let down and I havent been let down that many times or anything but still, it always seemed like the mature thing to do was not to ask people to do things for you and just let them do what they wanted to but lately im starting to think the opposite that its better to just let people know what you want from them and if they can do it great and if they cant well that sucks but hopefully they can, but its a much better chance of it happening if they know in any case. But yea the anxiety level would def be less in turning 21 but I guess I will let you know in about 3 months . Oh man you can do all sorts of cool things now! Like go to those concerts. Yay.
So today in my ethical leadership class which is a bs class btw because we sit around and talk about our feelings and hold hands and sing kumbaya ok not really but something like that but we were talking about having key people in your life and how important it is to being a happy and healthy person and Id like to think Im ok at being a happy and healthy person and its def because of key people like you that i can be like that, and honestly times when im stressing out or going insane its hard to remember that. like you ever notice how its wayy easier to get perspective on things when youre happy to begin with. yea. but whatever its all good now, and i cant wait to see you and i wish id seen that birthday list before getting you your present but oh well youll see soon enough, and hey theres nondenominational winter holidays right around the corner. Remember doing secret santa last year? Its funny to think how far weve come in one year. We still got each other though. Im getting all sentimental because Jen's currently playing one of those songs, oh you know "those" songs. yea right you got it.
Anyways time to leave to go see you! Whee.

On Free Stuff and Birthdays

I'm finally having a light week and it feels wonderful. This is not to rub it in, since there is a full book I should be reading (for next tuesday) and eventually I'll have to get to it. But I've been enjoying the relaxing nature of an hour here and an hour there. I hope I get to see you tomorrow because this is sad face. That's right. I went there.

My birthday is now about 5 days past and I'm sad it's gone but it was a good one. Last year was 20 and I found it incredibly stressful. It's nice being able to reflect back and learn that it wasn't the getting older every year part that was giving me panic attacks.  It was leaving a stage of my life, which has never been easy for me anyway. 21 was not as difficult. I know it's a big deal because of blah blah blah but I don't really drink and I don't really gamble and the greatest thing was being able to enter the bowling alley at my house after 8pm on saturday night (the have 21+ nights). I also can't wait to go to a 21+ concert. Because I have horrible luck with being able to go to concerts and this is just one more barrier broken down between Jenna and the next time Boyce Avenue is in NYC. But the reason I was happy about the lack of panic attacks for 21 was that I love my birthday. When I was freaking out last year, I was worried that this was it, that I couldn't enjoy my birthday anymore. I was afraid that my carefree birthday glory days were over. I stressed about who to spend it with, how to make everyone happy, and most of all how I could possibly make myself happy under the circumstances of getting older and being in a place in life where I felt short on people to whom I connected (/run on sentence). Looking back, I don't think there was anything that could've made it easier. I don't think it was one of those things where I could've been happier if... Honestly, I stress about things, it's what I do. And as stressful things go, I think in that case it was warranted.

But this year was nice. Maybe I've learned to love the people around me a little more. Maybe having the new spheres of life (house, journalism etc.) is good for me. Maybe it's just that I wasn't ending a decade. Maybe I was just more laid back about everything being "special" for my birthday. I don't know what it was but I sat back and enjoyed. I got an Entertainment Weekly subscription, an AMC gift card, and from my mom--- ADOBE INDESIGN!!! I hope I have time to install it tomorrow. I'm so excited to be playing around with it. I also got some cash and 21 scratch off lotto tickets that I haven't finished scratching. Also a little purple pillow that says "Crown Royal" (from Eric's company). Oh and a target gift card. I think that's probably all.

Point of the story is that birthdays are weird because they make you reflect and think about where you've been, where you are, and where you're going. For an anxiety-ridden college student, those are humongous things to think about. I don't- can't- blame myself for freaking out. I just need to take some deep breaths and eat me some chocolate. See you tomorrow!

<3 J

In the midst of the bridge...

YAYY!!! Happy Jenna makes me happy too! But serious thats fantastic! And yea sorry for not being so great about posting but life is busy and blah blah blah but I will see you today and we can recreate some roomate birthday magic! Even if I can't make a rocket and attach it to your wall so it can keep falling down all year long. But Im so happy that we were roomates so I can know you when youre famous and point out articles you wrote to our kids when they're growing up and then we can save them and frame them for decorating our apartment in paris with the balcony. you know that one...right.
So this week has been extra stressful but it got a little better last night when despite my better judgement I decided to go to ballroom dancing even though I had an exam at 8:40 this morning but hey you only live once right. So we learned the foxtrot which I really like because I picked it up real easy and its actually easier than the waltz cuz theres less turning and more just like gliding and gliding is fun. But anyways after the lesson theres like a mini social thing where they just play music and let you practice what you learned and not only did I make a new friend but also I was dancing with one of the guys from the team and he told me I should think about trying out for the team next semester!!! So obviously that made my night and week and life. Especially since yesterday I was thinking Iv been having such a crappy time with classes and rha had been so stressful this week that I just needed some good news or a pick me up.
But I like happy us. Happy us is good. Why arent we happy more often. oh thats right classes and other crap.

Meanwhile the title of this entry is because I just finished one of my exams and I have another major one on monday which I have to start studying for ack. Remember when I used to get good grades and be smart? heh.

Back to positives though! I don't know what your plans are tonight but hopefully we can hang out a little bit after dinner if not thats fine too, oh and Ill bring my(aka jen's old) camera (its just a regular digital not a fancy one but still good) and we can take pictures and pretend to be a couple again. Thats always fun isnt it.

When I was younger I used to pretend my life was a book and different stages in life would be an ending, if that was the case we would be in 6th book in the series by now. More people watch movies than read books though.*shrug*--> thats me typing out an action. laugh out loud.

Rising to the Occasion

I realized that I don't have to wait for you to post again. We didn't really make any kind of rule against double posting. Not sure why we would. The number one rule of Bowl is there are no rules. Stupid cliche. I'm writing because I said I was going to go to bed. Only I'm not tired. I got my article back- first draft on the overcrowding article- and I got a B+ which is fantastic. He said "But I thought you had this kind of talent, Jenna, and it’s coming out in a big display" in his comments to me. I'm sorry. I don't mean to obnoxiously brag, but I'm kinda glowing here. 

The semester started out with me fearing this class... knowing- just knowing- I would hate it. I began both of my assignments with two hours of "I'm terrible at this! I hate this style! I hate this format! I can't do it! This is not my strong suit!" I am just super proud of myself for challenging myself and succeeding. It's not like me to do something like that. Obviously, I'm getting ahead of myself. There's still most of the semester left and I have to keep it up, but I just wanted to tell you about the happiness in my life with this grade. Because sometimes the things you think you want aren't the things that you'll end up wanting. And sometimes htings that are hard end up being rewarding. And all that cheesy stuff. 

In other news, I can't believe this whole Chile mine thing. It's just. So. Incredible. 

Enjoy this happy Jenna. Who knows how often she visits... 

"In-A-Movie" Romanticism

It's good that you reminded me to do this because, despite my exhaustion, I'm actually in the perfect mood.

Here's what's on my mind (one of the things):

Things are painted in a much better way in the movies. Picture this- A group of friends. They are having a great time. The music is some kind of alternative rock blasting but it is still background. There are low shots of them. We see bright lights, sequined clothes, somewhat attractive young boys and girls screaming because it feels good to be young and let yourself go for a night and not have to worry about responsibilities. You smile as you watch it and you feel a little jealous even because they are having such a great time.

Now imagine... You are in your room. Doing nothing special, not really that focused on anything. Chilling. Watching TV. Maybe you've just gotten into bed. And these dumbass obnoxious college students are freaking screaming outside and laughing their heads off like someone told the joke of the century or something. Your neighbors seem to have some kind of speaker system rigged outdoors. The walls of your bedroom are unbelievably thin. Even though you're on the second floor, it feels like they're in your bedroom.

Seriously, I do often picture my life as some kind of production. Truth is that in really life, that is not something I admire. Maybe that's not true. It takes a certain kind talent to be able to completely disregard the needs or wants of the world around you. Actually they aren't that loud to night but I was just thinking about how movies can sometimes be misleading that way.

As the waves come crashing down

Im glad your solo went well,I would not have wanted it to go any other way and I knew you would do fabulously anyways. And yes how I wish we were two feet away right now. And I love all your creeper comments that sometimes make me think you are.

The title of this post is because of how iv been drowning in my whole life lately by the way and all these water analogies might be because of the rain. Anyways Iv just been really stressed and my dad always says that too about the whole having more work to do making you not want to do it all the more.

The 7 key on my keyboard is broken. It took me lik 8-1 minutes just to type out that 8-1.

Meanwhile I cant wait till I get a moment to breathe and catch up with you and Chuck and Iv always giggled a little bit in my mind when people use the word delicious for people. like teehee they just used delicious to describe something thats not food omg! But I just carry on like its the most normal thing in the world and am all like yes delicious right. So I dont know why but writing this blog post is putting me in a significantly better mood than i was.

Iv realized that my eh mood this week is probably because its err Aunt Rose's time to visit..i shouldnt put this stuff up on the internet but goshdarnit its been too long since Iv talked to you and I dont care. But yea its annoying because I keep walking around like Im depressed when its just a mood I guess. But anyways Im home right now with my gradma who might be leaving on friday for India because the reason my dad went on a business trip was for an interview and if he gets the job he will have to travel which means by grandma cant be at home all by herself and she will have to leave and that makes me really sad but at the same time its not like I can do somehting about it I barely have the time to even spend with her which makes me doubly sad. So thats my vent.  I miss having you around to vent to.

Have I mentioned how I dont like any of my classes? Its like I dont even go to college for the education anymore. Whatever as long as I can stay sane Im all good. Im a little bit insane right now.

I figured out you can do a cha-cha to the theme song of Coupling. Maybe Ill do it at my wedding..I mean Our Wedding.

So anyways I wont get to see you for forever now and that makes me so sad. Come back into my life please? Lets just go shack up somewhere.Sound good? K good. And the shack will have a balcony and be in Paris.Just so you know.

Unpacking: More fun than homework?

It feels like there is a negative correlation between the amount of homework you have and the amount you actually want to do it. That's what it's like for me anyway. The work I have is so overwhelming that I've been putting it off. Mostly it's the stuff for my 8:10 am tomorrow that's psyching me, which is swell because I just got the following email from the professor:

Here's a strong hint---bring your stylebooks tomorrow because it's the
perfect day for a quiz....don't forget that the handout is due tomorrow.

Thanks.

The "Thanks" was actually a part of the email, but it also echoes my sarcastic response to the matter.  So I panicked and continued unpacking. I brought back all of the things that I had left at home until now and put them all (okay most of them) away. I also reorganized one of my 'under-the-bed' bins. It still looks messy, but I now know everything in it and where it is, right down to the stupid, useless piece of blue lace in the back left corner that I just can't throw out because "What if I need it?" I hate my pack-rat tendencies sometimes. Other times they're kind of nice, like when I actually need something I've saved and do know vaguely where it is. *Note to self. Remember where lace is...*

So the bottom line is that I feel a lot more settled now, which is something that is really necessary in my life. Sure the holidays aren't over yet. Sure this week is another two and a half day week. Sure I have more work than I know what to do with and it's going to get worse over this week. Sure after the holidays are over I'm going to have to follow through on all the things that I sighed exasperatedly about and said I would take care of after the holidays... I lost my train of thought. At least I know all of my skirts are in my closet, and my hair products look nicely arranged on my shelf. 

Yes, we did have the conversation about typing out "gasp" and the like. We were having one of our 2-feet apart Gchats. Good times. I wish we were two feet apart right now... Or maybe we are *suspicious wink.* Chuck. Yes. He got a haircut and he looks delicious. I don't like that adjective for people actually. It's mostly for food and my cats. But he looks good. With the haircut. How many things can I think of to do to avoid doing my homework? Alright. Time to go. Wish me luck. Oh Wait! Were you the one who was asking me about CommunityChannel's "Your Mum Rates Me" and I said it was in one of her videos once I didn't remember which one. I found it. Just by rewatching some of them. Lame. Okay really though. Homework time. This post has seeeeriously gone downhill. 

AND bye.  

P.S. I had my solo today! I was running late and I hopped on stage right into the song, so I didn't have time to be nervous. It went well. Go me.  

Pinnafore is a funny word...

Yea I get that a lot. I remember this one time I was sitting next to a girl and a guy on a bus and someone was blasting high school musical 3 and ofcourse I was like wow this girl is such a loser until she left and it was the guy. And for the record he was dressed in all black and looked punk. Why yes I do judge people, thank you for asking. But I tend to turn my ipod the other way if I think someone is looking at it so they don't judge me and sometimes I'm so paranoid that I take out my headphones while the music is still playing to check if anyone can hear it and they never can.

So I went food shopping today and I have to say I never realized how expensive everything was.  I mean even cereal when you could easily just get the store brand and save a dollar we fail to do that...Something about the colors of the boxes or something. Meanwhile why do people say dont judge a book by its cover when we all know we judge books by their covers and cereals by their boxes for that matter...because no, its not whats on the inside that counts. If Tony the Tiger isnt the one serving me my frosted flakes then I say keep your own flakes!...Yea i dont even eat frosted flakes it just worked best to use it in this instance.

Oh and I didnt realize Chuck came back this week! What the heck?! We need to get on that and watch it next tuesday yea? And maybe you can cook dinner this time or theres always brower and we can get stir fry like old times gasp! Isnt it funny when people write out things like gasp or shrug..i feel like we've had this conversation before...

fish tacos.

Busy Schedules are for people who Don't Procrastinate

You know what I kinda hate? Blasting Ipod people. When I'm on the bus, all I like to hear is a. my own music b. nothing c. a random mesh of background noise or d. someone else's conversation. What I don't want to hear is the bass and percussion of someone's too loud music. Especially since 90% of the time it's crap music I've never heard of... some obnoxious heavy metal or rap. No thanks buddy. We're in the day and age where if I want to hear something, I can download it myself. You aren't "spreading the word" about your high school friend's band or anything; you're making me strongly dislike you as a person.

But what I really find funny about all of this is the 10% of people who are blasting typical 'on the radio' songs. As much as I hate the obnoxious music blasters, I think it's just a little embarrassing to be playing the latest Justin Beiber song loudly enough for a bunch of college students to hear. Personally, when I listen to my Ipod in public and I sense someone is looking at the song, I feel like I have to flip quickly to something "cool" or "alternative" so I can seem hip and informed on the underground music scene instead of people looking over my shoulder and seeing this...
Album Work

Because seriously there's nothing more definite than people looking over your shoulder and judging your taste in music based on the one thing you've allowed them to see. It's gonna happen. I did it myself with Mr. Beiber Blaster on the bus yesterday. I judged him (I know, him not her, weird...) It kinda sucks though, because I listen to awesome music and about 99% of it is NOT Miley cyrus, but if they catch me on one of those two songs... well I'll be a story in their blog later that day. Or their diary: "Oh My God! Someone else listens to Miley Cyrus in college!!! My life is complete!" *Sigh*

I'm excited about this too!!! Now I have to go run errands. Boo.

-Jenna

Construction is the best sound to wake up to

I forgot to comment on your notepad comment from an earlier post..Notepad?! Prepostrous! Notepad doesn't know what its doing, its just there like, here I am, I won't checking your spelling, title your documents, heck I won't even wrap your text until you tell me to, but you can type on me. Like really Notepad you can't even try a little bit harder for us there? I don't know man this Notepad thing is not something I agree on.

So I just want to say how much I love that we are doing this by the way its kind of like getting to talk to you when I don't. But I get to see you today so yay!

I was supposed to wake up at 8 but ofcourse I woke up at 8:45 so now I'm writing this before starting on all the work I have to do. I did not have time to watch HIMYM last night because i have no time for fun things no just kidding I just had a busy monday and you were right by the way I got to spend 2 hours in the sun giving out water ice while being attacked by bees occasionally and getting sticky from head to toe. Hows that  for a mental image?

But today just comes with more homework, more meetings, more events but it also comes with more you! So theres something to look forward to.

Meanwhile Hydrogen is no average word.

-Monisha

I wish I didn't have class

So I picked up a heads up penny just because of your story. I am one cent richer, and I think metaphorically richer as well just for the experience. I do not discriminate. Well, I do, but it was an indoor penny so I only thought a little bit about it. I used to pick up every penny no thoughts... it makes me sad that I don't now.

I love MLIA, and I know there's no standard of measurement that determines if your life is A, but it kinda seems like people don't really use their judgement. I mean they should at least get the idea from the average words of the day or something (Hydrogen). The site isn't called "This is a story I just want to tell..." though I'm sure that would get its fair share of internet traffic. That being said I do like some of their stories: I just read a dearblankpleaseblank that said "Dear God, please give us Heath Ledger back, we'll give you Robert Pattinson..." made me laugh. MLIA ...which just goes to show you that if you share something amusing enough, people will overlook the obvious problems with it. 


I also forgot to mention that Ted has a new love interest this year on HIMYM.

She’s Jennifer Morrison, formerly from house. I saw one headline that said she’s the mother, but the article didn’t seem to support that at all. I hate misleading things. I don’t know why everyone wants to know the mother so badly. It’s just going to ruin everything. I mean I’m sure once we know, there are still a billion episodes that could come out of it, but it will just take away some of the mystery. 


I think I need to go to class now, so my funny stories from the bus will have to wait for another time. Hopefully you're having a blast giving other people junk food while it melts all over you. I just heard Mr. Softee's song, so maybe I'll try and find the truck while I'm on my way to class. 


-Jenna

Pirates are scarier than Vampires

Ill start of with an MLIA post:
One time my sister set her facebook status as "I hope puberty hits Justin Bieber like a train, then I hope a train hits Justin Bieber like a train." She's coming along fine. MLIA

Meanwhile on MLIA now theyve started doing this thing where they talk about someone they know and go HerLIA or HisLIA..like seriously its called MLIA for a reason people! God I swear people sometimes...
And whoever said most of the things on there now are so not average at all is totally right although I guess you cant really define average now can you, like for someone with an awesome life, awesome things would be average...but then thats just sad.

I think Pirates are scary cuz theyre dirty. Its like dont come close to me or Ill breathe on you and youll die.

This morning I was walking through a parking lot when I saw a heads up penny, for a second I got really excited and I thought I was gonna have good luck all day and be a penny richer but then I was like this is a dirty parking lot I should really not pick up this penny so I kept walking...THEN I saw a quarter on the ground and picked it up and put it in my pocket without a second thought. Now I realize that I am a coin discriminator. Its technically like Im only 24 center richer.

And yea that HIMYM season finale was oook at best like I wasnt on board with the whole house buying thing.  Its like dude thats a house.

On to the rest of my day. Free rita's today on Livi btw. Ill be handing it out. Funny things I can say as I give people water ice? Let me know your thoughts.

-Monisha

Correction: Lesbians Do Eat People, Susan...

I was thinking about how you spelled disappointing wrong and it really makes me wonder about people who couldn't care less about spell check. I mean, I obsessively correct until those stupid squiggly red lines go away. And don't even get me started on the squiggly green lines. Who is Microsoft Word to tell me that I can't start my sentence with an "And." Grammar tells me that I can. Occasionally. <-- And that would get a "FRAGMENT" reprimand squiggly green line- because Microsoft word has never heard of artistic license or conversational writing. Really? Microsoft Word? Are you that much better than everyone else? You know who doesn't pull this crap with me? Notepad. That's right. Notepad. I know, I know, Notepad isn't as 'fancy' as Mr. and Mrs. Penguin- I mean Word- but it gets the job done and it doesn't judge.

In any case, SPOILER ALERT, what happened at the end of last year's HIMYM was that Lily thought she saw the Barney doppleganger (when it looked nothing like him) meaning she is ready for a kid, and Ted bought the house that he talks to his children in, assuming the daughter is the same now that she's starring on NIKITA- go Lyndsy Fonseca!- who says you need vowels in your name to succeed in life?

As for True Blood's lamest cliffhanger ever. Sigh. I'm too underwhelmed to talk about it.

And Pirates would be scarier because they could exist in real life- like serial killers and burglars who get scared when you're in the house and they didn't expect you to be and accidentally shoot you.

- Jenna

Lesbians don't eat people Susan!

I'm so excited for this blog!

So I was thinking about that super dissapointing True Blood season finale, I mean maybe I've just been exposed to many vampire things but theyre starting to seem less and less scary to me. Oh and How I Met your Mother comes back tomorrow! Although ofcourse I can't watch it live and I really do not remember what happened last season at all, I mean was all the bowl stuff even last season? Hello Mr.Penguin, why Hello Mrs.Penguin! Theyre just so fancy!

You know what could totally be as cool and scary as vampires..Pirates! Except they dont suck peoples blood or are living dead or anything...

Thats all for now.

<3Monisha