On a Roll!

I'm glad you liked it! I totally get that feeling (Like when I read Jessica Darling books- still haven't finished by the way). I'm glad you felt that way because I could have gone on, but as it was I was like "Is this too melodramatic and intense?"

YES! I can't wait to have you over at my FLAT! HA! It's strange trying to balance putting it out there for it to happen and managing my expectations so I'm not too bummed if it doesn't, but I think I'm doing a pretty good job. I go through moments or days sometimes where it seems like the scariest thing I can possibly think of, but then that eventually turns into fuel. Because if it seems scary, that means it's more than just a fantasy and I'm doing something right!

I'm not going to address everything in your post, even though I want to, because I think ultimately that's what makes it seem like a big task to keep this going and maintain the conversation, so instead, here's a new song I like:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0j3IwVkOfM

Hooray!

Off to send out resumes and then buy cat food and - if I'm lucky- a new dress for this Journal dinner thingy I'm going to next weekend (of course, the second I committed to going, I got invited to two parties that same night that I actually may have gone to. Typical. (except the parties I might have gone to parts...)

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Can I tell you how much I love the first paragraph of your last post? I read it through two times and still can't get enough of it, not sure but its kind of like the feeling you get when youre reading a book and like someone wrote down your thoughts for you and you are in slight confusion as to how they were in your head and you get a mild panic attack that they can read your mind and then settle in on realizing how awesome it is that someone can take what you feel and actually put it into words that like make logical sense.

Anyways.

I'm so happy you told me about London! It's great you have been making actual steps towards it and have talked about it to the outside world. My mom always tells me thoughts are really powerful and I believe the same. Even if it feels like something is pretty far fetched and you can't see how it can actually happen and work out, writing it down or telling someone just makes the whole thing real and makes it feel like yes, I can actually see myself doing this. I have also been playing around with looking for jobs in Europe but I feel like for me first and foremost I need to like what Im doing, then I can think about location.
So I've been working on the liking my job thing and have given myself this year to figure things out so we will see how that goes. Its already March though and that's pretty nuts.
Let me know if I can help you in any way(obviously) and I hope you know no matter what I will be coming to visit you(also even more obvious). And Ill bring over issues of EW and Ugg boots that your mom will want to send you.

I actually know someone I work with who made the move from NY to LDN and he said the hardest thing was getting the work permit which he was able to do as his parents were UK citizens. I realize your parents are not but just thought Id share. You know for kicks and all.

Please keep me posted on your progress and I will do the same, right now Iv become lazy but reading about your endeavors has given me new motivation to take control(funny how hanging out and talking to people your age as opposed to your parents does that).

In any case, best of luck and im sure im going to be hearing that you've got the london thing figured out in no time. And don't worry Im sure Ill be joining you there in a year or two(so save that couch for me..I am willing to give it back on the nights you need to nap there before going to sleep in your own bed)

Sometimes I forget...

Sometimes, if I go long enough without seeing people I care about, I forget how much I miss them and need them in my life. It's a strange thing since it becomes so easy to live in the routine. Work, home, sleep, work. But it was so nice seeing you, and it made me miss you so much! It doesn't make sense that seeing people makes me miss them, but it's really true. I miss telling you about my day and hearing about yours and knowing what's going on in your life. I miss talking about things that are important and spending just as long talking about our refrigerator.

Annnyywayyy,

So the only thing that's new in my life is really neither new nor is it a 'thing,' but I'm trying to find a way to go work in London for a few months. As you know, it's something I've wanted to do forever. I've joined a few Facebook group and gotten in touch with a few people over there. The main obstacle is a Visa. I could go for a few months on a travel Visa, but if I want to work, I basically need a full-time job that will sponsor me. Soooo it might not happen. But I feel good about putting the effort in. I've actually put in a bunch of time researching and reading about it, plus I put together my resume and started sending it out. None of this means I will actually get a job, but it's feels nice to be doing something anyway. Yesterday I even talked to my boss about it, which makes it feel more real in a scary way.

My job got extended to May - which is good- but I was like sooooo I'm trying to do this London thing and if something pops up I'm going to have to do it. And even though it's months away and I still don't have an actual end date she was still like "well, you'll need to give me notice." UM DUH. I think I'm going to also need a couple of weeks to, you know, figure out where to live and stuff, but definitely your thing is more important. Anyway, she also thought it was cool and I definitely should do it but I thought it was funny how everything at Chopped is always up in the air and she felt the need to stake her claim.

My co-workers have been helping me too. It's really nice that everyone has some connections, but the job thing, like I said, is the biggest obstacle, so now I really need to kick it into gear if I want it to happen. By the way, this was why I wasn't sure about the wedding in May. I do want you to come if I'm not in London :)